A year.
An anniversary.
Inhalation, exhalation.
Short winded sorrows.
Yesterday's dying dreams
exposed on pavement.
Streets left unswept,
empty even in death.
Crushed flora
wheels of time.
Laughter ringing.
Screams echo.
Whispers follow.
Canyons gray and black misted mountains,
those goats can climb.
Skies reign
cerulean pain
Gods of men
fail within.
Smiles in eyes
Never forgets.
Fails to consider.
Confusion again.
Deliberate disregard.
Avoidance witnessed.
Beasts to cradle.
Demons to dance with.
Hazy afternoons come soon.
Lost.
Never seen, never there,
meaningless being,
merely existing.
Fucked over delusional.
Cut from grasp.
Call as they pass.
Docks drown among waves.
Fish flee from yesterday.
Imprisoned, alienated,
isolated, stripped.
Patient smile.
Coffee beans grind
easier to find.
Fallen to fall.
Nooses, vivacious skin.
Veiny, supple neck.
Grease enters in.
Sweep blackness,
under the rug.
Search hay in needle stacks.
Pulling knives from others' backs.
Hang around, watch 'em scurry.
Days are numbered, lettered,
alphabetized,
organized.
Pay fees for what is free.
Smoking cigarettes to save lives,
money, emotional ties.
Turn page.
Around the margins
glowing angst.
Favored by most,
no room to boast.
Orphaned in self-expression
put aside.
Another try.
Take a drive.
Attempt to fly.
Broken.
Beaten, battered,
black-eyed.
Test results back:
Normal.
But then why-?
Too late to cry.
Believing.
Thinking.
Feeling...
pensive.
Soaked pillows,
swollen eyes.
Everything, everything lies.
Disappears, dies.
Same streets.
Same town.
Haunted mind,
feeling down.
Wine to water.
Grass to dirt.
Everything, every part hurts.
Carry on,
they look on.
Whispered words.
Disapproval.
Wearing "A's"
moral wilderness.
A life.
Promised.
A secret.
Alone.
No one shall ever know.
Drown rat, disease plagued.
Defend until death
A thought understood
A feeling... insecure.
No answers found.
A year.
An anniversary.
A toast,
to tomorrow.